八月份总是热的复杂反复，自己被装在写字楼里面，感受不了那份热浪袭人的恐怖，不过还有回忆还有偶尔出去的时候感受到的痛苦。

感觉自己最近经常被抛来抛去，充满了不稳定，不知道现在属于稳定没有

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住在昆明的酒店，想着玩，却更想着一些其他的东西，有些时候说：东西，大部分的时候表达的是语焉不清的描述，一是不想说，就像其他人喜欢用英文字母缩写表达，二是却是不知道该怎么表达，觉得冥冥之中确实有些不怎么确定的东西在烦扰着自己

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最近说起：“还好了”这句话，这句话就等于什么都没有说，所以这句话也不经意表现出说话者与听话者的关系是出于一种下方的关系，或者一种懒得理睬的关系，由或者不知道怎么回答，但是却又必须说点东西的关系

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我越来越感觉不知道怎么听人说话了，总是理解错误，别人也老是错误理解我，连出租车司机都能听错：我仅仅问了个是非疑问句，这位很牛X得昆明司机跟我回答的时候用反问句来回答我。

sometimes, i dont even have any idea what i should write on blog and show others, and try to dig out some of the meaning beneath the fact, which always cost me some time to make them and polish them. i dont mean that it's fake, but just no so real me from the side of my friend, so different from what they see me daily.

what you see, might be a kidding boy or fashion seeker or someone innovative, but unfortunately, the truth i dont want to face is that i am already lost something i do have before. my charisma for others.

hanging out last night, in a night club XinYe, i could hardly drag somebody out now, it's so humanliated that some who said will come and didnt show up eventually, so , my friend said: you got to admit that you are old.

yep. i am old, at least too old to show up in these place, but still, i want to act like a boy,when others become mature.

i might consider i should act older than i am look now, and that's true me. 

finished my assignment in MKT-CTB, i was still suffering from the burden unfinished.

however, new assignment seems not so suffer.

hope i can enjoy the left 6 months.